45th Birthday Paul - just always remember you being so spoilt by your sisters (one trying to out do the other lol) - you loved the attention. Another year, still can't believe you would be 45, how would you have changed, not much probably. It's just another sad day I am afraid without you but filled with "what ifs"????? How much has come to pass from aged 28 to 45 - all you have missed but I hope and pray you are aware on some level. I find I am doubting more and more as time goes on as miss you more - life is so strange Paul, just simply miss you ... Sending lots of hugs - love you heaps Your wife Lory xx